BRAVE Azeem Rafiq had to fight back the tears as he recalled the ‘inhuman’ treatment of Yorkshire CCC after his wife’s stillbirth.
Rafiq and his wife lost their unborn son in 2017, during his second spell at the club.
But speaking about the tragic ordeal to the Digital, Culture, Media & Sport Committee, the former all-rounder revealed the response from his bosses.
Rafiq said: “At the end of 2017, we went through a difficult pregnancy.
“The treatment I received from Yorkshire CCC was inhuman. They were not bothered, they didn’t care when I got a call to say there was no heartbeat.”
Rafiq had to pause to compose himself.
Adding more details about the heartbreaking loss, Rafiq spoke of how Martyn Moxon – the current director of cricket – ‘tore him to shreds’ on his first day back.
He also added he had never heard Moxon speak to anyone like that before.
In response, Rafiq met with his personal development manager, where he ‘cried his eyes out’.
Rafiq also said: “Around the loss of my son, the attitude of Andrew Gale [current head coach] was saying I’m making it more than it was.
“After the loss, hardly anyone asked, ‘Are you alright or is your wife alright?’ It was more about, ‘He raised bullying last year let’s get rid of him.’
“I carried my son from the hospital to the graveyard.
“The way I was treated was not right – there was a problem not just at Yorkshire but across the country.”
Rafiq was born in Pakistan and moved to Barnsley aged ten.
Five years later, he was forced to drink alcohol for the first time – despite his Muslim faith.
Rafiq added: “My first incident of drinking, I was 15, I got pinned down at my local cricket club and had red wine poured down my throat.
“The player played for Yorkshire and Hampshire.
“I felt like I had to drink to fit in. I regret that massively, but it has no bearing on the things I was called.
“I have been clear from the offset that I wasn’t perfect. There were things I did that I felt I had to do to fit in, and I am not proud of them.
“But that has no relation to racism. I should never, ever have been treated the way I was. When I spoke, I should have been listened to.”
Rafiq raised his first bullying complaint at Yorkshire against Tim Bresnan in 2017.
A month earlier, he said he was labelled as a leader on the field and a potential future Yorkshire captain – but then this switched to being called a ‘troublemaker’ and a ‘problem’.
Asked if there is institutional racism in professional cricket in England, Rafiq added: “Yes, I do.
“It’s scary.
“It’s clear the problem is there. Everyone has known it for a very long time. It’s an open secret. I’ve seen that if you speak out, your life is made hell.
“There’s been denial, briefings, cover-ups, smearing.
“Until 2017, I didn’t really know for what it was. I was in denial.
“I reported it as bullying. For me to believe I was treated in this way because of my colour is difficult to digest.”
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